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发表于 2007-4-14 16:12:20
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早过了混威望财富买书的时候了,发贴就少下来。看到这个题目,虽说多少有些感动想写点东西,可一是热情不高,二是如果草草写了也没甚趣味,所以逡巡至今。还是想写,种种关系不见得会写得好,故妄言之,故妄听之吧。
1。 Where the dream grew and suffered
My dream of being abroad came all in a sudden from my parents when I went to college. at that time, my mom returned from the u.s. after my father's 2 years visit there. they agreed with each other that u.s. was much better than china, and determined to send me there if possible. then the way of pursuing dream spreaded before me --- I didn't know how long it is, how much i was gonna lose.
a chance came to me quickly. in my last semester in college, i took a provincial competition of english for college students and got the championship, after that, a big company found me and offer an oppertunity to go to u.s for one year training before serving them, they wanted us who's chosen to become their backbones in future and the shcedule was so tight that we might not have time to finish our college degree. my parents insisted that I should got the degree first. then i quit. my first opportunity came and went like a wind. i didn't take it serious then coz i believed there would be lots of opportunities, and I was right, but nobody told me that only opportunities is not enough if you can not grasp any of them.
my english is always good in examinations, thus GRE and graduate student life became my first choice. after graduate from college, i took the exams, applied for several college in u.s. and got some offer, due to my poor GPA, the best offer I got was half scholarship, only the fee was waived, then they needed evidence of the ability of a sponsor that could either from china or u.s. fortunately, somebody out there would like to offer such a support to me. anyway, the next letter from this college told me that the sponsor letter never came and since i could not provide the evidence, i lost the chance....
I never stopped. my classmates, my colleagues went abroad one by one, those who left lost their will to take one more try as time went by, I didn't, never. 1 year later, an american professor came to my father's university for an international conference, he was my father's friend and when they met, my father asked if he could give me a chance, the professor agreed to meet me then. he was quite satisfied with me after the interview and told me he would like to invite me to be his assistant and would start the process right after he's back. a week after the conference, we got a call from his colleague to inform me that he could never make it again coz he failed to make through a heart attack. my dream vanished again with his perish.
I could not believe it. really. and I took another move, started the tech-emigration to canada. i used an agency to process it, but only one year later, the owner of the agency fleed with the money and our dreams of emigration. I think some people may know its name "Jin Fu". I didn't know what happened to them, or what happened to me. I just could not figure out.
years come and go, opportunities as well. in 6 years, i almost got the same number of chances and failed . during these days, i could not think of serious relationships with girls though i truely loved some of them, never take any job as a course though i worked out with them quite well. i quit and quit and quit in difference aspsects once and again, only at exchange of a slice of hope which could lead me abroad. finally, i forgot what i was living for and why i wanted so much to go out.
another chance came, and i got it at last. in 2002, i was hired by a samll u.s venture in tianjin as an engineer(coz i still want to be eligible for tech-emigration to canada. i quit administration work for it), and soon, the boss found me good at a lot of things and got me in charge of more and more responsibilities and finally made me the manager of the branch in china. i got quite well paid and started to hesitating on my way out, thinking whether should stay in china and be satisfied of leading a good life here, the boss got more interested in me. at the end of 2004, he asked me if i was interested in taking a visit to the headquarter in u.s. after that phone call, i saw the door closed for years there between u.s. and me opening slowly. 2005, i paid a visit to the headquarter for half a year, evaluated by managers and that october, i entered u.s again with a H1 visa in hand. when stepping into the customs with a stamped I-94 form, i looked back at the visible and invisible long long way across such a long time, I reached the other end finally, it's also a new start point.
p.s. 2 month after i worked in u.s., the canadian embassy wrote me that my emigration application was approved, and due to my good qualification, i was even got a waive of final interview. I considered it ironic and sour, my wife felt interesting. |
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