My heart is aching though four months passed since I fell in love with him---Fangxiao( his pen name)
It is a mistake. It could only be gone with wind forever and forever. Because I am married, I could not be an irresponsible partner for my husband. In fact, I somehow like and even love Fangxiao, but I could not admit it and I know I should not love him even for a little bit.
Someone said:\" It takes a life time to forget someone but only one second to love someone.\" Maybe it is true or maybe it is not.
I'm a Christian. I could not do such a thing that God dislike and ask us not to. So now I could only think of him in my heart. And hope when time flies year by year, it could only be a short memory in my life.
Anyway, I did wrong this time not only for me but also for my husband and even for him. God, please forgive me and save me. God, please lead me a right way to go on. God, please forgive him, too. God, please. |