[原创地带]diary (continued)

xfmeng

    But when I was in this happy sunlight, my belief suddenly collapsed. One night, realized we were destroying our life with the things we created. I asked myself what invent has brought to our life. The lamp makes night as bright as day. The machines liberate us from heavy labor. But the uncontrolled use of energy resources leads to the short of them, except for briging green house effect. We can take almost everyting with us in plastic bags but the environment around us was full of white waste that cannot be disgregated. Computer has become a necessary assistant to human brains. We can get in touch with any of our friends by callphone on matter where he is. But the electromagnetic radiation brought by these smart tools is harm to our health. What’s worse, we cannot predict the harmful effect because we are the first generation users of these digital products. Yes, laser can cure cancer. But why there are so many people suffering cancer today? What can laser bring to us because laser didn’t exist before 1960’s? These smart things make our life much more convenient, but meanwhile they make the earth more unsuitable for human beings.
      I didn’t know how these strange ideas came into my mind. Since there is no good to create things that don’t exist, why should I study to create them? I think the aim of scientific research is to discover the principle behind phenomena, to understand how the universe runs and then to make human beings adapt the nature better. It is to change the nature, to change the nature, to conquer the nature and to let the nature service us better, because our human beings is a part of nature. We never can be separated. I lose my belief, my hope and of course my passion of study. Sometimes I wonder if I am crazy, too strange. Normal people never think of this. I long for yesterday. At that time, nothing bothered me. I just studied and felt very happy in study, though I didn’t know what the purpose of study was. I know those days will never come back.
      But fortunately, when I finish this paper, I suddenly know what I should do. To be a discoverer, refusing to be a conqueror. After all, discovering is an exiting thing, just like playing games.