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No-one is there---Sopor Aeternus 永恒沉睡
Now and
then I\\'m scared, when I seem to forget
how sounds become words or even
sentences...
No, I don\\'t speak anymore and what could I say,
since no-one
is there and there is nothing to say...
So, I prefer to lie in
darkest silence alone...
listening to the lack of light, or sound,
or
someone to talk to, for something to share...-
but there is no hope and
no-one is there.
No, no, no... -not one living soul
and there
is nothing (left) to say,
in darkness I lie all alone by
myself...,
sleeping most of the time to endure the pain.
I am
not breathing a word, I haven′t spoken for weeks
and yet the mistress inside
me is straining her ears.
But there is no-one, and it seems to me at
times
that with every passing hour another word is leaving my
mind...
I am the mistress of loneliness,
my court is deserted
but I do not care.
The presence of people is ugly and cold
and something I
can neither watch nor bear.
So, I prefer to lie in darkest
silence alone...,
listening to the lack of light, or sound,
or someone to
talk to, for something to share...-
but there is no hope and no-one is
there.
No, I don\\'t speak anymore and what should I say,
since
no-one is there and there is nothing to say ?
All is oppressive, alles is
schwer,
there is no-one and
NO-ONE IS
THERE...
月黑风高的夜晚,人迹罕至的荒原,裸露的头骨泛着惨绿的磷光。残破的墓碑上,渡鸦冲天而起,倏地又盘旋不去,因为它们听到了歌声
,那是阴影演出者……
传说很久以前有个叫Varney的青年。他穷困潦倒,连购买最基本的乐器和设备的钱都没有,但他仍坚持创作音乐。直到有一天,他创作的磁带小样终于得到了唱片公司的认可,但他却突然间消失得无影无踪,取而
代之的是Sopor Aeternus。
Sopor
Aeternus,德语,意为永恒沉睡或死亡沉睡,又指那些徘徊在地狱大门外,没接引收留的孤魂野鬼。他们的肉身早已腐烂,灵魂却没有归宿,只能在无人的夜晚游荡在墓地,唱那些哀伤的歌。他们被称为阴影演出者(Ensemble
of Shedows)。
不幸的遭遇和母亲的毒打给Varney的童年留下了怨恨的烙印,直到成年之后
,生活的窘迫和无奈都使他彻底绝望。于是他选择了消失。有人说他早已死去,但他的灵魂却久久停留在原处,终日闭门不出,与骸骨为伴,脸色惨白,消瘦得像扯掉了亚麻布的木乃伊。终日创作音乐。并且发行了数张专辑,只是那音乐荒凉凄美得不似来自人间,人声更像在炼狱油锅中受煎熬的鬼,令人在毛骨悚然之余感受到一种发自内心的绝望。
没人能做到这些,只有阴影演出者。“实际上,我虽然作为一个肉身存在于这个现
实世界,但我的灵魂一直生活在另一个世界中,那是阴影演出者的世界,我与他们在一起。”Sopor
Aeternus如是说。在他看来,阴影演出者是一群已经死去的人们,他们帮助它,开导它,安慰它。这里之所以要用“它”,是因为从前的那个Varney固执地认为它是全世界唯一雌雄同体的生物,人们不了解他,嘲笑他,但他不在乎,他受的伤害已经足够多。
之后它宣布将进行变性手术,还改名Anna-Varney,并在2000年的专辑《Dead lovers’Sarabande (Face
Two)》的唱片内页中展示了它的女性器官。
~~随着旋律的展开,仇恨和悲苦像铅块重压着你,让你无法动弹,而那因受煎熬而扭
曲颤抖的声线使你觉得Beyond在〈海阔天空〉中的表演是如此卑微。在No-one is there中那令人绝望的“No I don’t speak
anymore and what should I say Since no-one is there and there is nothing to
say”的呻吟中,再加之那若隐若现的丧钟声,给你的震撼是无法用语言所能形容的。
当歌声结束时,,,,随着最后一声余韵的敛去,,,你感到一场虚幻的电影刚刚散场...阳光是如此灿烂,,,,以至于你觉得应该为从前忽略了它的美好而忏悔~!
周围的一切烦恼都成了无关紧要的琐事,,再不会为眼前的蝇头小利而奔走,,,再不会因为被误解而沮丧....因为你刚刚在那梦一样的演出中见到了一个诅咒之地的景象,,,听到了一个痛苦灵魂的哭诉........
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